Throw Away All Your Hope

Do I love you?
Yes, I love you now goodnight
Eyelids drop like atom bombs
A drunken silence ensues
I always feel like I'm falling
I don't know what to say
When I look at you
There's too much left to write
For me to tell you now
You always get me high
No more unconditional forgiveness
For desperate lovers in love
Any day now the ceiling will crash down to meet the floor
Catching us in between
Lips and fingers and heart locked
There are very few things I want more than you right now
If only I had tried to keep you
Look what sanity's done to us
Only in vain
I know the timer has gone off
But you forgot to tell me it rang again
How long has it been this time?
Four minutes, five?
Five hours, six?
Six days, seven?
Lately it all seems the same
I've never known another love
Where more dots mean more pain, more lies
More uncertainties...
Does she really have to be so beautiful
And always rub it in so hard?
The clock is stuck on 10:10 again
And I don't know where to begin
My hands are cold, they're always cold
And my blood is always boiling
I don't want to see you on Friday
I don't want to talk to you tonight
I just want to be back where I was a week ago
Sleeping safely in someone else's arms
I haven't felt peace like that for a long time
And I doubt it will ever come again
The walls are dripping fire
The ceiling is drenched in smoke
So hand me a cigarette and light me a match
And throw away all your hope
You're good for a laugh or two, that's true
But it's not enough to cure me
Your most faithful murderer
As shadows lengthen
And the summer sunlight drops away into autumn
I see her pretty face and add another line to my arms
Another mark of years
My own bloody timeline that won't disappear
I'll throw some paper under the heater
And hope a spark gently catches it
And sparks a flame between you and I
And I'll melt into oblivion
In my silent asphyxiation
I'll tell you I love you one last time
I have an addiction to high hopes and heavy falls